well it is getting close to my birthday again.  a big 86,  nor bros or sis' left just me and my family which is great. love them all. seems like all I think about anymore is passing. I know it is getting close. when you get my age you know you can't break too many records. I keep thinking it is not so hard now, Debbie paved the way. and she's waiting. her and Jesus hand in hand. I am not sick that I know of, but I just look at my age and then I see the obits in the paper and always look at the age. I am so proud of my family, I wish Chris lived closer so we could see each other more. I wish Pat had a happy life. I have tried to do for her. but she don't want me doing much. she is such a good person, but has a -------------I won't put it in here. I pray for her and her husband, and that god will get hold of him and give him a big jerk.
 I guess I shouldn't have started writting on here with the mood I am in.
earl went down to the church last night about 6 I think, not many there, and he came  home and laid down and set the alarm for 1 and went back, still not a lot there, he will probably go again  today.
don't have any plans for today. should clean house, but that is not one of my priorities ,
had green beans cooking all night in the slow cooker and they are not the best, for some reason. but  will eat them. earl bought a big bag yesterday and I broke them and got them ready. so it is green beans today and sun also. may be enough for mon. I try to keep from  going to the store, money just doesn't go far, seems like every week the price on something else has gone higher.
guess I will get off, knew I shouldn't have started this, I can't think of what to write about.  love  you all,

                                                     

     I am so tired of winter and all the snow we have had and it is not over yet, more coming this week. looking forward and spring and tulips. and would like to look forward to yard sales , but Pat has to get well for that, as I don't usually go by myself, she was able last week to do a little shopping with me  and I really enjoyed being out with her. been so long since she has been able to do things.
Been thinking about Debbie a lot lately, but I'm always thinking about her. saw this poem and have to put it in here
                                                    YOUR SMILE


Though your smile is gone forever,  and your hand I cannot touch,  I still have many memories  Of the one
I loved so much.  Your memory is my keepsake, with which I'd never part. God has you in His keeping, I have you in my heart.  Sadly missed, but never forgotten.


                                      

           Been quite awhile since I have been  on here. It is so hard to figure out what to put on here. 
I know I am getting so tired of all this snow and cold weather. I am a spring and fall person. I would rather be out mowing the yard and be able to open the door without freezing. i got so much running I need to do but afraid to venture out in the cold and snow. earl said he would take me when he gets  home, but it is not something can't wait, as he is so tired when he comes  home.he has to rest.  
Lily has been sick today. threw up 3 times. one I had to clean up and the other two I saw her getting ready and rushed her to the door. she is over 12 yrs old. been a good dog.
Pat doesn't seem to be getting a lot better. want her out of that bedroom so bad. 
Jr had surgury  and is having a time getting over it, can't seem to get the pain stopped. and that makes it hard on Chris and she has to stay awake and take care of  him. I know she needs to get her rest or she will be down also. 
   I'm ready to head out somewhere where it is warm.