well it is getting close to my birthday again.  a big 86,  nor bros or sis' left just me and my family which is great. love them all. seems like all I think about anymore is passing. I know it is getting close. when you get my age you know you can't break too many records. I keep thinking it is not so hard now, Debbie paved the way. and she's waiting. her and Jesus hand in hand. I am not sick that I know of, but I just look at my age and then I see the obits in the paper and always look at the age. I am so proud of my family, I wish Chris lived closer so we could see each other more. I wish Pat had a happy life. I have tried to do for her. but she don't want me doing much. she is such a good person, but has a -------------I won't put it in here. I pray for her and her husband, and that god will get hold of him and give him a big jerk.
 I guess I shouldn't have started writting on here with the mood I am in.
earl went down to the church last night about 6 I think, not many there, and he came  home and laid down and set the alarm for 1 and went back, still not a lot there, he will probably go again  today.
don't have any plans for today. should clean house, but that is not one of my priorities ,
had green beans cooking all night in the slow cooker and they are not the best, for some reason. but  will eat them. earl bought a big bag yesterday and I broke them and got them ready. so it is green beans today and sun also. may be enough for mon. I try to keep from  going to the store, money just doesn't go far, seems like every week the price on something else has gone higher.
guess I will get off, knew I shouldn't have started this, I can't think of what to write about.  love  you all,

                                                     

     I am so tired of winter and all the snow we have had and it is not over yet, more coming this week. looking forward and spring and tulips. and would like to look forward to yard sales , but Pat has to get well for that, as I don't usually go by myself, she was able last week to do a little shopping with me  and I really enjoyed being out with her. been so long since she has been able to do things.
Been thinking about Debbie a lot lately, but I'm always thinking about her. saw this poem and have to put it in here
                                                    YOUR SMILE


Though your smile is gone forever,  and your hand I cannot touch,  I still have many memories  Of the one
I loved so much.  Your memory is my keepsake, with which I'd never part. God has you in His keeping, I have you in my heart.  Sadly missed, but never forgotten.


                                      

           Been quite awhile since I have been  on here. It is so hard to figure out what to put on here. 
I know I am getting so tired of all this snow and cold weather. I am a spring and fall person. I would rather be out mowing the yard and be able to open the door without freezing. i got so much running I need to do but afraid to venture out in the cold and snow. earl said he would take me when he gets  home, but it is not something can't wait, as he is so tired when he comes  home.he has to rest.  
Lily has been sick today. threw up 3 times. one I had to clean up and the other two I saw her getting ready and rushed her to the door. she is over 12 yrs old. been a good dog.
Pat doesn't seem to be getting a lot better. want her out of that bedroom so bad. 
Jr had surgury  and is having a time getting over it, can't seem to get the pain stopped. and that makes it hard on Chris and she has to stay awake and take care of  him. I know she needs to get her rest or she will be down also. 
   I'm ready to head out somewhere where it is warm.  


                                                          

  will try to add a few more words to this.It's hard for me to keep it all up to date,  I have been worrying about Pat for months, she just  doesn't seem to get back into shape. We  used to run around all the time together, but now she hardly ever leaves her little room. It is as if she has just given up. she said she thought this was as good as she was going to get. but I don't think it has to be that way.
   Halloween is here and that was always her favorite time of the year.  and she has all the things she has bought for the d ay, and they are all put away. I am glad her daughter has moved back, maybe she can get her out of that room and doing something, I know she is in a lot of pain, and takes all that medicine for pain, and am afraid she is addicted to pain medicine. 
  Earl has gone back to Walmart to work a little while, He tells everyone that wanted him out of my way, he doesn't like to say we can use the extra dollar, He is awful tired when he comes in at night, he may not be able to keep it up.
   once again I get on here and can't think of a thing to say. so will try to get back sooner and maybe make notes ahead of time.  love you all.

                                                             

                               Almost Halloween, 

   Sitting here this morning thinking about the wiener roast coming up this sat. and hoping it doesn't rain sat.  but they keep adding more rain on . I am thinking about trick or treating when the children were small, and I wouldn't let them go by theirselves so I went with them. we were going to throw corn at peoples houses, as that is what we did then besides knocking on doors for a treat, but the corn was more fun. It didn't really hurt anything, it  would just scare  you to death it you were just sitting in there reading or something and all of a sudden a big handfull of dried corn hit the side of  your house. and I told them now you  had to run real fast after you did it. before they came out and caught you. so we were going along having a good O time, when one  house we hit , a policeman lived there and here he came out the door, and we took off and he was getting in his car to come after us. so I yelled for them to hit the ditch, to  hide , it was a kinda deep ditch and when got in it , it had water in it , and from the smell  it had to be from someones  toilet, at least it smelled like that , and we had to stay there till he went by, and then we had to go home to change clothes and clean up. so that ended the tricks for that night, and another thing we did, but I didn't have the little ones do it. we took a stick and ran it down the side of the house and it made a big noise, and then you better run, I guess I got a lot of exercise when I was young. of course there were no vinyl siding then it was wooden, so it didn't leave too much damage,. As far as I know it didn't leave any damage as I never went back to see. I really wasn't such a bad kid though, course there were a couple other things  like bridge painting ,that I won't go into now. or probably ever. Maybe that is why as I got  older I became a painter, and  joined the painters union in Indpls. painted for yrs and then went into hanging vinyl. traveled for yrs doing that, until retirement. and here I am 85 yrs old, and taking care of my daughter Pat, we have been to the emergency room twice this week, I sure hope this morning when I talk to her she is a lot better, she has been sick for so long. quit a few things wrong. and with all the pill she has to take for pain, she is doing weird things at night, like falling out of bed. I wish she would come stay with us, Well will get off of here for now, and get dressed as  I have to be at the drug store when it opens to get her med. prescriptions filled. they have gave 3 different things now , trying to find out what is wrong, sure hope they have hit the nail on the head this time. they got to do something about this pain the girl is going thru. later.

                              

          after 4 and been sitting here ince 2:30. leg hurting so couldn't sleep.  I finally got the operation on my legs. One they think is cancer and the other, from about 4 yrs ago when motorcycle fell on my leg. haven't been on the cycle since that day. I know earl hates to ride by hiself so he just leaves it sit most of the time.
    had the surgury yesterday, and it went well. and didn't hurt till in the night. so I went to bed at 10 and read till about 11 and then got back up at 2 30, so here I sit. going to have to change the bandages today. 
    nothing planned for today. I guess I will sit and read or play on here. I figured this was a good time to write something, but drew a blank I am not much of a thinker, so will try to get back later.  going to get some cantalope now.

                                                         

                 Will try to add some more,
  It seems like Pat is on the way now, the dr. said she can start using the leg now as long as it doesn't hurt too much, but the bone is not all healed yet. hoping this will be her yr. to get up and go. she was bedfast almost the whole last yr.  Miss getting to run with her so much. but I know the hardest part was for her not getting to get out of that little room except to go to the dr. and then it was in a motorized chair. she has had a rough yr. Just praying that it all is coming to an end. but I don't think they can do anything for her back. so she will probably still have to use the chair if she is going to be on a shopping trip.
 Johnny and charlene are coming tomorrow, so will have to figure out what I am going to have for dinner,
they like chicken and we like beef so will see who I am going to satisfy.
 I am so glad that it is starting to look like spring. I have 2 bushes with buds on them and we are going to have cold weather and snow this week, so I may have to put a bucket over them. I love my flowers out in the yard,
  Oh, I made a valentine heart with flowers on it and took over to debbie. I forgot to take the camera and get a picture of it, but will try to do that today.  will get off now.